Some Time to Think

On Wednesday, I shared a little of the journey ahead for me and my fellow co-workers at my company. I won’t repeat all of the details. You can simply scroll down and read what I had to say on that previous post.

I thought for a long time before posting what I did. You see, I’ve known what was coming since early December. I’ve had plenty of time to think about it. During Christmas. New Years. And, during Evan’s birthday. I’ve thought about it. I’ve prayed about it. I’ve talked with my wife about it. We’ve looked at what this means to our bottom line.

By no means do I want my words on Wednesday or today to reflect any negative feelings toward the people I serve alongside. There isn’t any anger or animosity there. Honest. I work with some of the greatest people and servants I’ve ever met. I look forward to great days ahead for our company and the people who make up the company. I believe the best days are ahead. We just have to make it through this tough stretch.

At this point in my life, I’ve decided to take a few days off from blogging—not like people come in droves to my site on Friday, Saturday, or Sunday anyway, or any other day for that matter. You know, I’ve tried to stop watching Sitemeter and seeing who is visiting the site and from where. I do peek from time-to-time, the curiosity just gets the best of me. But, I’ve come to accept the fact that I write this blog, not for numbers, but to build friendships and relationships with others. And for that, I’m most thankful that you’ve stopped by the site every day, or if today is your first day. Either way, I feel blessed that you’ve shared a part of life with me.

But, I’ve come to the conclusion that I need a few days to reflect on the journey I’m about to take. That journey begins today for me. These are uncharted steps. Since I was 21 years old, I’ve worked. I’ve always been paid for the work I’ve done. Now, I’m employed, just unpaid. I’ll be off a week and then go back to work once again. To my same job. To the same office. Kind of weird just thinking about what is to come.

My goal is to post something new on Monday. That’s not a promise. But a goal. I do know I won’t be sitting at the computer every day next week, waiting for people to comment or to visit my blog. I’ve got a long list of things I want to accomplish next week. And, as my dad would say, “The Lord willing and the creek don’t rise,” I’ll complete that list. On the top of that list will be building Evan a toy box. I’m not a great carpenter by any stretch of the imagination, but this is something I want to build for my son. I want him one day to realize that his father built this, to the best of his ability, during a difficult time in his dad’s life. I want Evan to know that I focused every bit of energy on creating something special for him. I can’t think of a better gift for him, or me.

I’ll be back in a few days. Promise. Maybe Monday. Maybe Tuesday. Maybe Wednesday. Soon. But, I’ll see you again shortly. Friends, thanks for your patience. And prayers. Both are appreciated more than words can say.

In His Name,
Steve